Friday, August 7, 2009

A Magical Irish Story - Meeting with a Master

She said, “Children are for sharing. Not everyone can have one.” We never did. So it is a delight to share time with these creatures of being. They are still connected to their original face. They still play in the garden of eternity.

His name sounds as Finn. He has beautiful blue eyes and the blondest of blond hair. He shares his name with Fionn Mac Cumhail. This is frequently anglicised as Finn Mac Cool. Finn Mac Cool is one of the most celebrated heroes in Irish myth.

Little Finn will be tall and beautiful. Now he is small and beautiful. He is learning to talk. He is learning to put distance between his immediacy. There will be a time when he thinks about his life rather than allow it to flow. He will learn to dance rather than be the dance.

Being around children reminds me that feel their experience moment to moment. When they look they see what is before them. They do not judge their experience. They are their experience. This is why they are so delightful even if sometimes they behave as if this world belonged to them and them alone. They know this world belongs to them until they are told differently. This is their real understanding of this world. It is we who have forgotten. They are there to help us remember.

I am standing at the edge of Lough Allen. I have come to visit Corry Strand. This is where I meet this giant among toddlers. My partner Barbara has met this child before. His Mum had come to hear a concert or play at the Glen Centre in Manorhamilton. While Mum watched the play Barbara minded child. When he became fractious and upset she walked him down the main street. She held him close in her arms and sang Gershwin. He settled at the sound of this melody sang softly into his shell like ear.

He quickly learned my name. He quickly gave me the gift of his trusting heart. It came as a delightful surprise to find him placing his little hand in mine. He had decided he and I would take a stroll along the sand. We walked and came to sit by the remains of a campfire. He told me stories. These were one-word stories.

These were one word stories facilitated by finger pointing. He reminded me of the old Zen Master who tells his student “I am only the finger pointing at the moon.” Here is my little Zen master teaching me the simplicity of seeing.

One story is “stone.” The other story is “dog.” Each is direct and immediate. There is no sense of fear. There is only the continued pointing of the finger. He makes the stones come alive. He sees them before ever they have labels.

Too soon there will come a time when he lives in labels. Too soon he will think he knows what a “stone” is. Soon he will forget how he once saw the wonder of that “stone” and that “dog.” He will swap wonder for knowledge. He will swap what is partial for what is holy. He will become a rational person rather than the mysterious little being he is.

He reminds me of Yoda in Star Wars. The force is with him. He is a wise little being with a hand that shows art in every gesture. He shows me the gladness of the ever-present moment. He is selfish as all children are. This is their world. However, they love to share it with you. This world is their playground and they want you to play here too.

On this shore of Lough Allen he reminds me of that other shore. This is the one we seekers long to sail for. It takes us to that timeless shore where we are forever young. My work is to do what Finn does best. I spend time patiently allowing myself to enter this mystery of life. He is still held within it. I am the amateur and he is the pro-fessional of presence.

He is a fount of wisdom. He does not have the words. He only has his finger. He uses this to conduct dialogues with this mystery of life. He allows the music of life to play through his little body. I am only a part of the orchestra and too often I feel apart from the music. He plays all parts expertly and is the music.

Time will be when he will forget he is the play of God. Time will wrap around him and he will be taught to “do life.” He will be taught that life has to be earned. He will be advised that it is more important to earn a living rather than be alive to love. He will be taught his creativity does not fit with economics. He will become productive and competitive rather than celebratory and abundant. He will give up his wondrousness for acceptance.

He will forget that he is forever enough. If he is lucky he will meet with other wise men and women who will tell him to risk all for love. He will forget that love is all he needs. He will turn from love in action to love of activity. His is the fall from the grace of being to the non-grace of persona. We are all destined to fall from this grace. He will be loved but he will feel separate from all that is.

When he is older he will, I hope, take another hand. He will stand on another shore.
He will remember to look at the beauty of what is without labels. He will no longer see it the way that we lost in social consciousness see it. He will, I hope, one day see again via his heart. The way he sees now. When this happens he will be a giant among men. He will be Finn. He will be fair of face and fair of hair.

Thank you Finn for your instruction. I am blessed to have shared your wisdom. You are already a giant among men. You are a child of the Universe. Never forget little one. May the force be forever with you and may you stay forever young in that little heart that you are so ready to share.

Return to Oneness

In "A Church not made with Hands" Micheal Roden writes
Christianity, like mysticism, begins with the inner individual and ends when that individual returns to Oneness. No one can really mediate this for a person. No particular group can claim exclusiveness on Oneness. It must be an individual and profoundly personal experience, and yet it rises well beyond any sense of separate self.

The Christianity of a Church made with hands tend to mistrust the mystic. Mysticism places experience of God at the center of ones life. It does not place the belief in God at the centre of ones life. Mystical experience is direct experience. It is certain and does not involve doubt. Why is this. It is because the doubter as a separate sense of self disappears and all that is left is knowing (which isn`t the same as knowledge).

Return to oneness is At One Ment. It is to transcend that sense of separateness which in my last posting I referred to as the experience of orginal sin. Again, to remind you, none of this implies in any way that you should feel guilty. Guilt locks you out of the Kingdom that is the promise of the Master Jesus.

Sinner YES or NO

When I was young I was advised by those in authority that I was what was called, " a sinner." My heart and my head rebelled. Along with this revelation (if that is what it could be called) was the implicit idea that I ought to feel somehow wrong and should feel guilty about this fact.

Fourty five years later do I still feel this way. The answer is a very definite, "No I do not." If you were to ask me, "Are you a sinner Tony?" the answer would be "Yes I am and no I am not." In order to understand this pardoxical answer you would need to know my personal definition of what the word sin means.

To say you are a sinner is to say that you feel separate. There is no need for you to feel guilty about this. You belong to a collective called humanity. This is a fact. Human beings think themselves as being in a body that is born, lives in time and space and then comes to an end when the body dies. This for most people is not something they doubt or even ever question. This, however, is what is sin. In this respect, you are a sinner just as I am a sinner.

I don`t feel guilty about this. For me it is a fact of living on this planet. Except that I long for more. I have a holy longing to feel beyond this sense of separateness which makes me feel distant from that source of Love given many names. One of which is God. This is in no way some kind of punishment. It is the evolution of consiousness in form.

To move beyond being a sinner one atones. One becomes AT ONE MENT.

This is a spiritual experience that Jesus Christ invites one into here and now. It isn`t intended that you feel guilty. It is intended that you claim your birthright of joy. You don`t do this through beating yourself up in anyway. This only adds to the sense of separateness that you feel you already are. Guilt will not take you into the higher reaches of consiousness. It will lock the door to the Kingdom that Jesus Christ invites you into living, not when you die, but right now.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Welcome from one Believer in Exile


This blog will be the recording of a journey. It is hoped that this journey will be a return from exile. I am what can be termed a believer in exile from the invitation from Christ. The title of this blog is taken from two sources.
The blog title "Believer in Exile" is taken from the title of the book by John Shelby Spong "Why Christianity Must Change or Die: A Bishop Speaks to Believers in Exile. In this blog I will be examining ways in which this exile can be made into a homecoming.
The beautiful painting opposite is by Holman Hunt and is entitled Light of the World. The door that is being knocked on late into the day is the door of the heart.

Welcome from Tony Cuckson of Anamcara Experience


Let me open with the wonderful Celtic Blessing


Deep peace of the running wave to you.

Deep peace of the shining stars to you.

Deep peace of the still earth to you.

Deep peace of the Infinite Peace to you.


This is more stable than wishing the invitation to happiness. The peace invited in this blessing will allow you to ride out the windstorms of your life situation. More to come.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Spiritual Partnership (1) - The Difficult Question




The need and interest of soul consciousness is not 'how' to
draw things to itself from the environment but how to draw out from itself the qualities and energies from which a greater environment can emerge.
- David Spangler



One of the questions that has arisen from being at Earthsong Camp 2009 is the question that I would call "spiritual partnership." One of the key aspects that I love about attending this festival in the heart of the Irish countryside are the individual moments shared around the campfire.
Many people are hungry and want to draw to them a relationship that is inspired and inspires them. They have a longing to love and be loved. They ask the question of Bee's and my relationship, "How do you stay together for so many years and still keep the flame of love tended so that it remains aflame and not just a spark or becomes an ember or an embarrassment of what is termed love?"



I will answer this question from my personal point of view and from the way in which I conduct my relationship with Bee. Let me say at the very outset that Barbara (Bee) is not my first love. My first love is my relationship with Self. Note here that I use the world Self with a capital S and not the word myself. This first love is no secret between us.


This love affair I have with the Self, the Beloved , is primary and out of that I am graced to love the blessing in form called Barbara Smith. Some people will find it difficult to imagine that one's partner takes second place but if you really want a spiritual partnership to evolve then, in my experience, you will have to learn to stand in Love with who you are and always are.




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